“I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
So I find this law at work: Although I want to do good, evil is right there with me. For in my inner being I delight in God’s law; but I see another law at work in me, waging war against the law of my mind and making me a prisoner of the law of sin at work within me. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
So then, I myself in my mind am a slave to God’s law, but in my sinful nature a slave to the law of sin.” –Romans 17:21-25
There is a Holy discomfort
A constant raging within my soul.
I am not yet what I set out to be.
I am not enough.
Look at these sins as they pile higher and higher
Until I cannot even see their end.
Greed, Lust, Sloth, Bitterness
A lack of gratefulness and contentment.
Death. Death. Death.
“Lord,” my heart cries, “Why can’t I do this? Why can’t I succeed in my longing to be perfect and holy?
Why am I not good enough?”
“Oh my love,” He whispers to my soul.
“Don’t you see?”
His eyes burn with Love and Truth.
“Did I not die? Did I not give everything for you?”
Well, yes Lord, but—
“Then you are enough My Love,” He whispers.
“You are mine—I call you whole.”
“I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” -Galatians 2:20